If I want to be seen as a compassionate person, do I have to kill my ego? If I want to be seen as a kind and empathetic person, do I have to ask my ego to leave the room? Then again, who is telling me how I want to be seen by others? Why should I be concerned about how I am seen by others? Wait a sec! Is it my ego talking? My ego is talking about killing itself, so that it can be seen as a compassionate, kind and empathetic self. Oh my god! My 'Ego' is a hypocrite!
When I think about the social connotation of Ego Death, in my mind I go, "Nah! I don't see that happening." From a perspective of a good society, you should not have an ego, you should not act from your ego, you should go through an Ego Death to be able to act selfless for the greater good. Well, without your ego you don't have any action within you. Without your ego, you will just have the knowing of being a selfless, compassionate and kind person. That sense of knowing will take you to a sense of emotional fulfillment, which is good. But you know what is better? If you can act on it too. And do you know what you need to be able to act? Your Ego!
What is 'Ego'? Ego is the 'You', ego is what separates you from the external world and people. Ego lives in your left brain with your persona in a palace called conscious mind. If you are living a life, you need your ego to be able to wake up on time, to be able to pay the rent on time, to be able to tell you to ask for help when you're in potential danger. Without your ego, you might be getting happily robbed in some dark alley. So, No! I would not want my ego to die.
What I want is my ego to meet my fellows from my right brain living in the palace called unconscious mind. As my ego meets the fellows, it realizes that it is not as big as it thought it was, it was never the lord but a knight. In the palace of my unconscious, there lives my Athena, where my ego will surrender as my Ares. Ares has a role to play for Athena. When I accept my ego, I don't kill it, I don't suppress it, rather I let it integrate with other bits of self. I let my Ares know its role, I let it not to lead but to follow my Athena. And together, I have this alchemic creation of a powerful self that is separate yet connected to the collective consciousness to serve a bigger purpose!
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